Ceaseless, inside me I cry, never forgotten river of pain, flow through me, the river Styx.

Forgive, forgive, forget, forget, repeat, again, never ends, It never ends.

How do I hate love? When I so love to hate? How do you stop time? when time’s not playing your game?

Water run over, your eyes are already too full.

Hush Angelita, don’t you fret, Suena’s gonna teach you something you will Never forget…

When you go I won’t forget you, though I know I can’t protect you.

All those days I watched you crying, all those nights I bought his lying.

Babygirl, why do you cry? 
I hate to see you this way 
Wipe those tears, hunny, dry those eyes. 
I promise it will be ok. 
Life’s a hard road, and there’s a long way to go 
You gotta be strong to make it. 
So lift that chin up, and don’t let the pain show 
Be brave, I know you can take it. 
Angelita your beautiful, no matter what I say 
And when it hurts to breathe at night 
Call me and I’ll wish it all away 
And if you just can’t stop the tears 
When you feel that you’ve lost the fight 
Know that you’ve got me and I’ll be right here 
To cry with you, and hold you through the night. 
yo sere tu Suena mi Angelita 
I’ll always be around 
And when he leaves you hurt and broken 
I’ll pick your heart up off the ground 
This war is never-ending 
On this love-struck battlefield 
And neither side is worth defending 
When the price is finally revealed. 
And though we face each other 
With hatred in our eyes 
We can’t disguise what tells no lies 
There’s love within our hearts. 
So I’ll lower my defense 
And give you wings to fly 
Though it comes at my expense 
You’ll always be an angel in my eyes. 

8/11/09

All the meds in the world couldn’t save me from these nightmares.

Like a broken record stuck on repeat.

Sobs broken, like your body, broken, like our hearts, broken

The definition of Irony, Me and You

2 pm- Laughing

3 pm-His dead eyes

10pm- Texting

11pm- Goodnight =)

12pm- Missed a text, shhhhhh, go back to sleep.

It is a silent night; don’t wake me from my dream world, so peaceful.

Tick-tock, tick-tock, sweet oblivion to the horror that unfolds

6 am- ….Something is wrong

9 am- Phone Call…

I am falling….drowning…..unconsciously moving, stumbling, anywhere, everywhere.

Numb.

2 pm- I will find you…

First to come, last to go, first to fall, and last to know.

So beautiful in you fragility, rainbow and porcelain

Glass shimmering deceptively lovely, a deadly diamond adornment.

It’s funny, how things happen to us, when we least expect it.

Life throws curve balls

….well you’re one hell of a curve….